Way out?..

I don't think I'll have opportunity to write here every day, but now I just want to try publishing from my office Word right into my Blogger. Let's see how I manage… ^_^
Yes, I think it's kinda way out for me, I feel such a lack of self-expression when at work. I'm not sure if I'll have enough time for publishing entries. Still I want to make it. At least today, when everybody is just waking up after long holidays and I haven't got much work to do yet. Actually I would like to have just a bit time for myself, to compensate that lack of creativity in my office. I'd write entries and I'd feel happy then.
Hope this day is going to be calm till the end, coz honestly, as many of us, I'm not in the mood to work today))) Yes, I'll just register some incoming docs, as usual, like a robot. That's all.
Now I don't want to include my emotions in the process anymore. This work is just a way of earning money. I can't like or dislike it. I'll be indifferent. Sounds horrible, I know. I've never been indifferent towards my work. I've been eager to do something creatively. But now that I'm deprived of opportunity of putting creative grain into my work… I'll be senseless. I just need money, that's all.
The only thing I ask You, oh Lord, let me have time in the evening to see my love. And just a bit of time for my hobbies such as learning languages, dancing, drawing. If I have time then I have strength and wish. I don't need anything else… to be honest if I have that it'll be easier for me to work. HOPE SO.