I’m beginning to understand

…with whom I’d spend my whole life. Someone would say these are only impressions, intricacies of my vivid imagination, in a word - fantasies. I’d say so either, just a while ago. I would even bring lots of arguments why I think so (ex. I need to see him personally first, I can’t say anything that definitely… bla-bla-bla…). But now… now I’ve got other arguments. And that’s not because I’m blind of love or anything. That’s my weighed and mature thought based on many conclusions and even a thorough analysis. Now I’m at the age that implies mature thoughts and decisions, for goodness’ sake! A happy thing is that I’m not only able to feel deeply. My head is also working all right. ^_^

So with him I’d spend my life. I’d share dreams, thoughts, happiness and grief with him. I’d feel deepest affection and freedom at the same time because he’s not a person who’d impose anything on me but would always caringly support me by his love and respect (here I should say that respect to my life and opinion was the thing which lots of my male acquaintances were lacking). And he will never try to change me but will accept me as I am. As well as I.

I feel so easy and happy with him. Even in spite of being technically educated and having another way of thinking he shares surprisingly many of my hobbies and likings in general. At times when we talk I have a strong feeling that we’re two neighbour pieces of puzzle. We’re within the same noosphere after all!

This total match to the image of my abstract beloved one which I was holding in my heart for so long… this match is dumbfounding. Finding someone who is embodiment of your dream is hard to believe and feels like a miracle. I will caringly protect this miracle and will fight against the world if necessary. And not out of selfish feeling of “private property”…it’s much deeper than those petty things a girl would feel to a guy.

I would add much more than I’ve just written. But no need… why should I justify that? It’s just that deep inside me I know why we are together and why I want us to be together. That’s all.