My Site

Today is just the right day to launch my tiny site. Dunno why, just decided so. ^_^
It's bilingual (Russian/English).

I've started making it on January, 6, but then I couldn't find enough time for making it further. I was making it only from time to time.

So my site is kinda raw by now. But with time I'll fill it with new content.

Welcome. ^_^
http://yumemi.fo.ru/  ©

Happiness of Beling Alive And Healthy

Misfortunes that happen all the time to other people - accidents, explosions, plane crushes... so many of them... make me value life even more. And on 27th of March something has happened to me too. Now that I can speak about it without any nervous tremor I decided to write this entry.

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I Will Remain Your Belief

Our world is going on its spiral turn,
it's disappearing in placid milky distance.
The sands of days are rapid as they flow
unrolling our paths into the endlessness...
And when you go into the morning rain,
by path unclear, tangled and unstable,
I will remain for you like clear day,
like evening song, like night which is so gentle.
Wherever you direct your faithful ships,
whichever storms would threaten them with anger,
I pray that black clouds would just pass sideways,
and if not, then for wounds to heal up sooner.
And then I will be like lighthouse, which
black clouds won't destroy surrounding it.
You know, my brave one, where your house is,
the place where you are waited, you are loved.
I will accept it all. Forget despair.
In boundless love I will dissolve your pain.
Wherever you will make your way again,
I will remain as your belief - forever.


Russian original:

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Om Mani Padme Hum

this one is magic.
Om - 3 aspects, all beings, creation of universes.
Mani - jewel, pearl, insight
Padme - "in lotus", human consciousness
Hum - freedom of mind, a challenge to evil.
"I'm the part of the Universe, my consciousness feels insight, my mind is free from evil".

Being a mother

From FB.


A human body can bear only 45 del (unit) of pain. But at the time of giving birth,a mother feels upto 57 del of pain... This is similar to 20 bones getting fractured, all at the same time. 
This is just to tell you the extent to which a mother loves her child!

You're given a dream...

"You are never given a dream without also being given the power to make it true. You may have to work for it, however." © Richard Bach

I will warm up your heart...

Wind is driving forth frowning clouds in the sky. 

That is life running randomly, haunting somebody’s thresholds,

Hitting itself on the walls, yearning in search of the way out. 

All the hardships and worries are just like a whirlpool. 

Wind is whistling, and night is rushing getting furious. 

No, it’s not fear, just some incomprehensible grief. 

Heart is decreasing its pace and is standing still for a moment, 

Seems it’s impossible to overcome such a terrible cold. 

Oh my love, why this cold and why are you feeling so lonely? 

Why are you closing your eyes, why don’t you believe? 

We often consider that heavens appear to be very cruel. 

But what if it’s not cruelty but just a door to the better? 

Stand up. I know that you can. And I know you remember, 

Nothing that’s given to us is beyond our strength. 

Look at the sunrise, you won’t let your head down now. 

I will warm up your sorrowful heart, my beloved one. 

Overcome death

Meaning of death is getting over it.
You can overcome death with love. Philosopher Gabriel Marcel once said - "Telling a person I LOVE YOU means saying YOU'LL NEVER DIE".

Morning Pages Journal, July 4 2011, Mon

Morning Pages Journal, according to Julia Cameron's book "The Artist's Way", is the best way of relaxing and knowing yourself. You just wake up every morning, take a copybook and a pen and write everything that comes into your head, for half an hour, until you cover 3 pages. Each and Everything, even if you think it's crap. I would say MPJ is really great and helpful. It brought good solutions and ideas to me, and also discovered something I would never think of knowingly. 

My retrospective review.

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9th of May - Victory Day

Thank you for the victory! Thank you for the life! We remember...
1945 - 2011

50th Anniversary of Gagarin's Flight! ^__^

They have uploaded a wonderful film on YouTube, I'm in a hurry to share!
I was about to hang out in the space, honestly!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RKs6ikmrLgg&feature=featured

And this music from a Russian movie about Gagarin ("Taming Of The Fire") has been causing goose bumps on my skin since my childhood!



And last, but not the least, I'm proud of my fellow countryman... and a Freeman of my native town Orenburg! ^__^

This is only beginning...

This is only beginning.
Roads and wind.
Along silent railways
and under clouds.
Petty things have become
smaller and smaller...
Only sky is around,
and it's opened to us -
I know that now.
And we're inseparable,
like links of chain...
No, we're stronger.
We'll melt in embrace.
It's so tender and strong,
this interlacing of destiny
and living love.


Это только начало.
Дороги и ветер.
По замершим рельсам -
и под облака.
И мелкое стало
всё мельче и мельче...
Кругом только небо,
открытое нам -
теперь это знаю.
И мы неразрывны,
как звенья цепи...
Нет, мы крепче с тобой.
В объятьях растаем.
Так нежно и сильно
сплетенье судьбы...
и живая любовь.

Morning Snow Glitter

Imagination

We

"Everyone said that we were not a couple.

But he said to me: "We're not a couple. We're a single whole".

© from somewhere

Stop and Start...

How to Make Pancakes With Apples ^_^

I decided to start New year from a scary step. I roasted pancakes (!!!). Though not simple ones but with apples! My family was just gobbling them)))

The recipe of family euphoria is simple ^_^

1 glass of curdled milk/not very thick sourcream

1 egg

1 big spoon of sugar

a pinch of salt

baking soda (on an edge of knife)

1 glass of wheat flour

1 apple, peeled and cut into very small cubes)) I added also some cinnamon.

Put the dough into a frying pan with sunflower seed oil, with a big spoon.

This is a really tasty dish for tea. ^_^

A nice quote about love, from an article

Our Lord watching you sees that you may be happy with a certain person whom you'll meet when you'll be, say, 25 years old. Till that time you'll experience a lot and you'll be able to attract your dream into your life. That means that till that age every love affair you'll be having will end with parting.

All your meetings and goodbyes exist to teach you how to be loving, wise and patient, to teach you how to interact with men, how to see and appreciate every moment of such interaction. Partings just say that you've already learned all your lessons with these men, that happiness with them is impossible for you and that there's someone you'd live with during your entire life.

You'll meet him only if you go forward to your future, preparing yourself to that meeting, learning to accept life as it is. This meeting won't happen if you withdraw into yourself, if you live in your past counting beads of your miseries.

I’m beginning to understand

…with whom I’d spend my whole life. Someone would say these are only impressions, intricacies of my vivid imagination, in a word - fantasies. I’d say so either, just a while ago. I would even bring lots of arguments why I think so (ex. I need to see him personally first, I can’t say anything that definitely… bla-bla-bla…). But now… now I’ve got other arguments. And that’s not because I’m blind of love or anything. That’s my weighed and mature thought based on many conclusions and even a thorough analysis. Now I’m at the age that implies mature thoughts and decisions, for goodness’ sake! A happy thing is that I’m not only able to feel deeply. My head is also working all right. ^_^

So with him I’d spend my life. I’d share dreams, thoughts, happiness and grief with him. I’d feel deepest affection and freedom at the same time because he’s not a person who’d impose anything on me but would always caringly support me by his love and respect (here I should say that respect to my life and opinion was the thing which lots of my male acquaintances were lacking). And he will never try to change me but will accept me as I am. As well as I.

I feel so easy and happy with him. Even in spite of being technically educated and having another way of thinking he shares surprisingly many of my hobbies and likings in general. At times when we talk I have a strong feeling that we’re two neighbour pieces of puzzle. We’re within the same noosphere after all!

This total match to the image of my abstract beloved one which I was holding in my heart for so long… this match is dumbfounding. Finding someone who is embodiment of your dream is hard to believe and feels like a miracle. I will caringly protect this miracle and will fight against the world if necessary. And not out of selfish feeling of “private property”…it’s much deeper than those petty things a girl would feel to a guy.

I would add much more than I’ve just written. But no need… why should I justify that? It’s just that deep inside me I know why we are together and why I want us to be together. That’s all.

A sudden thought

Yes, one of those that frequently come into my head without any previous notice. I was just thinking that the book “The Artist’s Way” by Julia Cameron has awakened the artist sleeping within me. Really. Now whatever I draw or paint I do that in some different way. I’m much more serious towards whatever I create nowadays. And at the same time whatever I do I do it in a bit playful mood… not to fancy too much ^_^ 

But this is not the main thing actually. The main thing is that… seems like thanks to that very book… now I can FEEL without fear. I wasn’t forcing events, I just let myself feel. I just let it flow like river flows. And now this river carries me into the open sea. And even that is not scary to me. Not anymore. Perhaps I’m like a sailor now… who’s been on a firm land for too long and is missing that very open sea. To feel embrace of waves and kisses of sun, to feel freedom and delight.

Maybe after some time I’ll be watching forward with strange grief, waiting to be the first one who’d shout “Land ho!”. But still that doesn’t mean I’m afraid of waves. I’m even eager to let them carry me. To experience everything, be it happiness or pain. To live in full.

I just want to live in full, to love wholeheartedly. Thank you that you exist.